April fools day!

It was one year (and one day, on April 1st 2008) that I found out that I was going be a father. It was one of those days that I will remember forever. I realized that in 8 months, my life would completely change. The odd thing is that even though I knew things were going to be different, I still acknowledge that I didn't and couldn't fully understand what that would mean.

Now with a daughter who is nearly 4 months old (April 5th), I have a taste of how different my life is. But the overwhelming weight of my role as a parent is still there. But the difference is Good. Even though there are more restrictions on my life, the beauty and color that life now has makes all those restrictions worth it. Often when I reach a restriction, and I think about my daughter. Those restrictions (going to a movie, education, sleep), bring me joy because of my response.

Do I often feel overwhelmed as a parent? Yes, and that is healthy. Just as a 15 year old feels overwhelmed when going on that first drive. Its a big responsibility, and I am doing my best to take it seriously. (yes there are some things that I do take seriously).

Changes like these are well worth the weight (and the wait), and the sacrifices.


Ben